There are times when I wish my faith in God was perfectly box-shaped, with the corners tucked in neatly, and the whole thing tied up with a big, red bow.
There are times I wish I had bite-sized answers for the hard questions. Answers that make easy sense within the framework of my humanity. Answers that don't stretch me too much.
But it doesn't work that way. Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. And that can get messy. Young mothers get sick. Husbands leave. Terrorists fly planes into buildings. I follow a God who has promised me peace and comfort and joy, but on His terms, not mine.
And I know--I really do know--that this is a tough thing for some people to swallow. From the outside looking in, it looks like a blind faith, or a crutch. I've traveled that road of skepticism more times than I can count. I wrestled until my soul was bruised. There were times, when I was younger, that I didn't think I'd ever be able to believe again.
But I do believe now. I do, with all my heart. Even when it's messy. But how? How can I follow a God who doesn't always stop suffering?
I don't have a theologian's answer to that question, because I'm not a theologian. There was I time when I needed that kind of answer--the facts, the explanations, the persuasion. I've heard them all, and those answers are all an important part of my faith journey.
Now, all I really need to see is His track record in my life. I believe because I've seen what He's done, in my own life--my peace in the storms, my journeys out of the wildnerness. I don't doubt His goodness, simply because He's proven it to me so many times, through my own circumstances, through Scripture, and most of all, on the cross.
My daughter hates it when I make her hold my hand to cross a parking lot. She hates it when I have to tug a little to get the tangles out of her hair. She hates it when I say "no" to snacks right before dinner.
I do all this because I see the big picture. She doesn't.
Yet in all of this, she still loves me and prefers me. Why? Because she knows that the same momma who says "no" to snacks is the same momma who makes sure she's always well-fed. The same momma who grabs her hand in the parking lot is the same momma who kisses her scraped-up knee. I have a track record of proving my love for her. When I do something that makes her angry, she ultimately accepts it as coming from the hand of a mother who always acts with her best interests at heart.
Is that too simple an analogy? Maybe. But faith is simple. It's taking a leap and suspending disbelief just long enough to see if God is who He says He is. If He is, He can handle the tough questions. If He is, He'll meet us on our journey, taking a thousand steps toward us when we take just one toward Him.
From the bottom of my heart, I'll tell you--He's worth the risk.
this is beautifully written. faith is such a hard thing for outsiders to understand, and yet, for a believer, it's very simple. thank you and i pray this touches many hearts.
Posted by: diana | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 01:18 AM
He IS worth the risk! And, like you, it's His track record in my life that convinces me more each day that no one should live without knowing Him. Thanks for a gorgeous post!
Posted by: Michelle | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 01:33 AM
Yes! He IS. And, I loved the way you expressed it. That was an excellent example for WHY. Why do we trust God when He doesn't seem to be doing us any good - Because He knows better than we do. Why do we believe in Him, because He has shown Himself to us in so many ways.
Thank you for your testimony.
~Mercy~
Posted by: Mercy | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 02:00 AM
thank you.
Posted by: Jaime | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 05:25 AM
I love this post.
Posted by: Maggie | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 05:40 AM
I think your analagy is perfect and this post is lovely. Thank you for a beautiful start to the week.
Posted by: Beth_C | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 05:44 AM
Beautiful, sweet friend.
Posted by: boomama | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 05:55 AM
Thank you for stating this so simply. My husband is an information seeker. He must have all the facts, scripture references to document his beliefs. I on the other hand place all my faith in God "just because". He's there and He's in control. He listens when I call out to Him and He loves me because I am His child. That's enough for me.
Posted by: Mary | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 06:06 AM
Amen and Amen!
Posted by: chocolatechic | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 06:08 AM
Wonderful post!
Posted by: Heather @ Desperately Seeking Sanity | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 06:11 AM
Excellent, Shannon.
Posted by: Jeana | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 06:13 AM
I too, find assurance in my faith, not by looking ahead, but by looking back at my life. While in the present,especially during trying times, He can be hard to find sometimes, but looking back His Hand, His Love, His Mastery is so evident, so obvious, I must ask myself...How did I miss it...How did I miss Him??? And in that knowledge, I know He Is There as I look ahead into the future.
Blessings Shannon for wording this so well.
Posted by: Niki | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 06:35 AM
Beautiful post! Thanks for sharing and encouraging me. He is our anchor through the storms and we can delight in His mercy and love!
Posted by: Slava Bogu | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 06:41 AM
Wow! Well-said...and exactly what I needed to explain why I believe to a 17 year-old who is questioning everything.
Posted by: Melissa | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 06:51 AM
Beautiful. My eyes are filled with tears of gratitude. What a wonderful Father we have!
Posted by: Amy A | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 06:53 AM
When you are sitting in a room with medical professionals, receiving a life altering diagnosis regarding your two year old child, your faith (the deep down stuff) can take a beating. Yet I believe. Now, six years later, my child is so way beyond all predicitions made for him by those well meaning professionals. I do not know that he has done what was not expected of him because of my beliefs. I know, however, that God gave me a acceptance of my child that enabled me to keep going for him when my child needed me to keep going. He gave me a peace that enabled me to have the patience to be a good parent to this child when I could have been overwhelmed.
Someone asked me not long after we received the diagnosis, "Why aren't you crying?"
My answer, "It's all gonna be all right. God is good," would still be the same today. As I watch my little buddy reading on grade level, whizzing through math problems and interacting with his friends in scouts I know that God IS good. He stayed with me when I doubted much in the same way I cared for my kiddo on the days when he tried me in everyway he knew how. On those tough days (and long nights) God whispered in my ear, "It's gonna be all right." Go figure, he was right.
Posted by: Activities Coordinator for The Planet | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 06:56 AM
Another good book on the subject is C.S. Lewis' "The Problem of Pain." Basic premise: how can a good God allow bad things to happen?
Thanks for sharing your heart!
Posted by: Princess Leia | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 07:00 AM
Beautiful. It's amazing to look back on our lives and see that even when God didn't answer every prayer the way we thought He should, He was still there working things out for good. He's a truly amazing God. Thanks for the inspiring post!
Posted by: Susanne | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 07:05 AM
Beautiful Shannon. I am in the same place, and I can echo just what you have said.
Posted by: Linds | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 07:18 AM
What a wonderful way to start my week! Thank you for your analogy Shannon. It is beautiful!
Posted by: Kimberlee | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 07:22 AM
I love that analogy. Thanks for sharing. And thanks for the reminder!
Posted by: Kristy | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 07:30 AM
Thank you, Shannon, for this beautiful post and a beautiful beginning to the week!
Posted by: Melissa | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 07:31 AM
This is a wonderful post. I heard something this weekend at a retreat that said that Adversity is telling. It shows us what we have built our lives on...a firm foundation or sand. So many times God uses those things we find extremely difficult to build us up and make us stronger even when we don't see it. Thanks for this beautifully written post. I hope it touches many people.
Posted by: Heather | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 07:36 AM
Great post. Great perspective.
Posted by: peach | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 07:38 AM
Thank you. I'll keep trying. ;)
Posted by: Amy Austin | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 07:41 AM
Well said. I must share this with my sisters! Thanks so much.
Posted by: Faye | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 07:55 AM
Love this, Shannon. Just beautiful.
Posted by: Big Mama | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 08:08 AM
Beautiful post - thanks for sharing!
Posted by: Lisa Kay | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 08:13 AM
Outstanding post! God is faithful and He is good. He is carefully working all things together for our good and His glory. Thanks for the great illustration and good word! Blessings.
Posted by: Jean Stockdale | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 08:17 AM
Beautifully said, Shannon.
Posted by: Karen @ Simply A Musing Blog | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 08:25 AM
Beautiful post Shannon and so true. Thank you!
Posted by: Lari | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 08:29 AM
Well said.
One thing that helps me with my faith when things seem to be terribly wrong in my life is to remember that God's ultimate purpose for me is not to make me comfortable. It's to draw me closer to Him and increase my faith. I wish I could say my faith grows the most in the good times, but it's usually the bad times that stretch me and ultimately make me rely on God more.
Posted by: Lynnae @ From Under the Clutter | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 08:29 AM
I may have to come back to this post again and again. You said it so eloquently. Evangelism w/o the "evangelism".
thank you.
Posted by: Gretchen | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 08:31 AM
Amen! Thank you!
Posted by: Jessica | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 08:38 AM
Amen, Amen and Amen!! Powerfully, wonderfully and beautifully said! Thanks for reminding me of this today!
Posted by: momrn2 | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 08:41 AM
If we only have the faith of a child...
Faith really is simple. We make it so complicated. God, in His Wisdom and Grace, made it simple for us to understand. Praying this post will touch a doubting heart today. :>)
Thanks, Shannon.
Posted by: Melanie | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 08:51 AM
Beautifully shared, Shannon! This is why I believe as well. God has been so good to me, even when I resented His teaching. I think it's important for us to record what God does, so that we will have something to look back on when our faith wavers. One reason I love blogging.
Posted by: SingForHim @ Real Life | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 09:03 AM
I've never thought of my faith this way before. So simple yet I've never heard a better argument.
Posted by: T with Honey | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 09:20 AM
Outstanding Shannon! Thanks!
Posted by: Pastormac's Ann | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 09:27 AM
You seem to have said what I've been trying to explain for the past two years.
Posted by: HeyJules | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 09:32 AM
Exquisitely said. Beautiful.
Posted by: Antique Mommy | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 09:42 AM
Exquisitely said. Beautiful.
Posted by: Antique Mommy | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 09:43 AM
WOW, I've had FAITH on the brain the past few weeks. My DH wasn't raised in a church. As a child the only time he went to church was when it was his Dad's weekend, and then, it was only his Step-Mom that took him. He doesn't understand FAITH. That makes for a rough marriage.
Posted by: Kasi @ ReynoldsRap | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 09:52 AM
Lovely. Positively lovely. Been there, too.
Posted by: tracy m | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 10:02 AM
I find this quite interesting writing and you put in a lot of thought to it. But I’m coming in at a different view of things and I hope you don’t mind.
Some says it important to have an individual loving relationship with “God” in my own words he/she made us all different so are relationship would be unique and loving..
But I found out there some out in world who may have a different relationship with god/dess then what they may have it wrong.
Sure at time I wonder why my life goes as it goes and may faith does wonder at times.
At later time when I have more time…I may write in more detail about individual faith and a personal relationship with the almighty.
Posted by: peppylady | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 10:04 AM
That is right along the lines of what I posted yesterday. If you read the post, I am refering to closer to the bottom. God doesnt let bad things happen any more than I let bad things happen to my own children. But He will be there to support me just like I will be there to care for my kids
Very good post
Posted by: rebekah | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 10:07 AM
One of the best posts I've read in a long, long, long, long time.
Thank you.
Posted by: Lisa | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 10:08 AM
How wonderful. I am convinced this is because of how God changes us! "Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!"
II Cor. 5:17
TRAVELING LIGHT
Posted by: Sandy Feekes | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 10:09 AM
Amen. Amen. Amen. And that is why we are to have faith like a child. We just know that he'll take care of everything, even though we don't have the big picture.
Posted by: Shalee | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 10:20 AM
So beautifully written, Shannon. I know I will come back and read this post again and again. Faith is indeed simple; but simple doesn't mean easy and I think that is what trips me up!. Thank you for your thoughts. They start my week off on the right foot!
Posted by: Tamara | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 10:21 AM
wow what a beautiful post. Thank you for writing this... it was a wonderful way for me to start a Monday morning. So eloquently written. You took what is a complicated subject for some people and reminded them how simple and true God's love is. I will read it again and again, Beautiful!
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Posted by: Stacey | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 10:46 AM
Just yesterday my pastor equated the walk of a Christian to the walk of Dora (yes, the Exlorer). God will be with you when you go to the Desert and face temptations. Temptasions are of Satan and meant to harm. God will be with you in the Garden when you face Trials. Trials are of God and meant to draw you near. God will be with you at the Cross, when you face Tribulations. You will walk these three spaces just as Christ did, and with HIM, you will arrive at your destination with a jubilant shouting and a "job well done, my Good and Faithful Servant."
Posted by: April | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 10:49 AM
Oh yeah - and Romans 8:28.
And we know that in ALL (not some, not most, but ALL) things, God works for good of those that love him.
Posted by: April | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 10:52 AM
Thank you Shannon. Very timely.
"In this you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials, so that the tested genuineness of your faith—more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire—may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ." 1 Peter 1:6-7
All we do, say and are, all we encounter and struggle against, may it all be for the glory and reknown of Christ Jesus our Lord.
Amen.
Posted by: Courtney | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 10:53 AM
Shannon, this is the best explanation one could ever reed. Beautiful and so very true. -hugs-
Posted by: Dana | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 10:57 AM
Beautifully worded.
Posted by: Annie | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 11:00 AM
Wow,very beautiful post Shannon! Thank you for sharing.
Posted by: Stacey | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 11:02 AM
Wow,very beautiful post Shannon! Thank you for sharing.
Posted by: Stacey | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 11:03 AM
Amen!
Posted by: Melissa | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 11:25 AM
Beautiful!
Posted by: Barbara H. @ Stray Thoughts | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 11:28 AM
Thanks for this reminder. I was struggling with this just this morning.
Posted by: Amanda | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 11:31 AM
Yes.
Posted by: mopsy | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 11:52 AM
Beautifully said.
Posted by: terry | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 12:05 PM
Spectacularly brave and invitingly messy. I loved reading the comments from all your readers who also agreed with this humble post about real faith.
Thanks for sharing your heart and thoughts.
Posted by: Seized by Hope | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 12:08 PM
Yep. LOL.
But what I want to know is, how did you make this so succinct? It would have taken me 5,000 words to try to explain what you just did in 500 or less.
Thanks for taking the time to share this.
Posted by: dcrmom | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 12:14 PM
What beautiful words! Thank you for sharing them.
Posted by: faithful chick | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 12:27 PM
Thank you Shannon for such a wonderful post.
Posted by: Darlene | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 12:38 PM
Beautifully put! Putting my faith in Christ has been the best decision I've ever made. It's led to countless blessings, and it's gotten me out of horrible messes.
Posted by: Vail | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 12:40 PM
Printing. Saving. Trusting.
Posted by: kelli | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 12:46 PM
Beautiful post, Shannon.
Posted by: Katrina | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 12:51 PM
THANK YOU!!! Beautifully Written!
Posted by: Sarah @ To Motherhood and Beyond | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 12:58 PM
I agree wholeheartedly Shannon. Thanks for the reminder.
Posted by: Dana | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 01:00 PM
I think what you said was beautiful.
But it should also be said that I am Agnostic, and yet I can see the beauty in what you have said....not because I agree with your religion (Christianity is not my path), but because I agree with your SPIRITUAL message.
I believe in something beyond death, and the "concept" of God. I have experienced moments of such beauty and clarity that, for me, there is no denial that there is. But what keeps me going through the bad times is the idea (in my mind) that God is ALL, and IN all (note I didn't say we were all gods, I don't believe that), and present, and so I figure there has to be a reason, a lesson learned, from everything that we perceive as "bad". Hitler wasn't born as the Hitler we knew, he BECAME that monster, and yet, had he been killed before he brought his terror to the world, would we have learned the lessons we did? Yes, not everyone learned the lesson - not everyone was meant to - but I feel that it was key that SOME of us learned it and now fear that it will ever happen again. We are the ones who - even if we AREN'T Jews - can also stand and say "never again" because we have taken something away from that moment that leads us to try and preserve the piece of God that resides in us all, because we are all born as children, and all loved (even if not by our parents), and all cherished as part of the whole.
In the Gospel of Thomas (and yes, I know not all Christians accept it as a Gospel, but if not, it's still enlightened), it is said that Jesus said that "The kingdom of God is inside you and all around you". This is what I believe of God. I believe that God transcends our feeble ideas of "good" and "evil", of "light" and "dark", that God just IS.
You don't have to believe that, it may not be your path. But know that THIS is how I reconcile the bad that may happen and how my own 'faith' (if you will) is not challenged.
Posted by: Jesse | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 01:28 PM
I read this today right after reading a post over at the Farley's site re; Copeland. It spoke so beautifully to my own bittersweet feelings about their plight. Thanks.
Posted by: jmom@lotsofscotts | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 01:58 PM
I will bring this to Bible Study this week and read it to my sisters! Beautifully said!
Posted by: MooBeeMa | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 02:26 PM
Shannon,
Simple faith - is there any other kind? Love this post!!!
Sherri
Posted by: Sherri@NoiseOverload | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 02:31 PM
love that. wonderfully said and much of it is what i have been pondering too.
Posted by: chickadee | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 02:36 PM
Absolutely beautifully written Shannon!
Posted by: Susanne | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 02:41 PM
Absolutely beautifully written Shannon!
Posted by: Susanne | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 02:42 PM
Now why couldn't I say it like that? Really really beautiful and simple and clear and lovely.
Attagirl! Way2go!
Posted by: Andi | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 03:08 PM
What a lovely post. Very nice. As a convert from atheism, I can relate to a lot of what you're saying. Thanks for articulating it so well!
Posted by: Jennifer F. | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 03:14 PM
Wow! Thanks for posting this.
Posted by: Erin | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 03:38 PM
Um, it appears that you have found at least ONE answer to a deep question that many people struggle with. And you will probably benefit from coming back again and again to read this post....thinking, YES, I need to hear this over and over. Because when God reveals answers to deep questions, stuff comes in and tries to cloud the issue and we need to constantly come back to the answer again and again. At least I DO......thanks for sharing from your heart!!!
Posted by: Suzanne | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 03:45 PM
Beautiful. We just had a Sunday School lesson on Suffering. What, Why, etc. This puts it perfectly. Thank you.
Posted by: Checkers | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 03:57 PM
Very well put.
Posted by: Amy T | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 04:22 PM
Thank you for the beautiful reminder of Gods love.
Posted by: irene | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 04:29 PM
Wow, thank you so much for writing this. It hits me right in the soul.
Posted by: Jenna | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 04:35 PM
Your description of your faith is so eloquent! What an inspiration, and a reminder of God's unending love for us.
Posted by: Jeni | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 05:00 PM
I needed that Shannon! Thanks so much for following the urge of the Holy Spirit to write this post.
Yes, He is absolutely worth it!!
Posted by: Stacey (Kisses From the Father) | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 05:33 PM
What a great explanation of faith. Parenthood can teach us so much about God's love and the ways he 'parents' us. Great post. Thanks for the reminder of God's love and His view of the big picture!!
Posted by: Amy | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 06:08 PM
Thank you, dear friend. Thank you for sharing such a wonderful testimony of faith. God bless.
Posted by: Terri | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 06:29 PM
Love this post. Not too simple at all. It is refreshing to see people having the "faith of a little child".
Posted by: Sprittibee | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 08:27 PM
Beautifully put.
Posted by: Jill | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 08:44 PM
I always enjoy reading your blog. I love this post. It's even better than the ones that make me laugh very hard, and make me smile. HE IS WORTH IT!
Posted by: Kilikina | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 08:52 PM
Amen. A simple faith is what I have, and you've explained it beautifully.
Posted by: Laura | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 08:54 PM
There are no words... so along with the masses, I say... just simply beautiful.
Posted by: Ashleigh | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 10:28 PM
So true, and so eloquently written. Thanks for the reminder of God's faithfulness and unconditional love.
I agree wholeheartedly - He is worth it.
Posted by: Kelley - O2BNAZ | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 10:56 PM
This is an awesome post! Thank you for sharing your thoughts on faith!
Posted by: Mrs. Brownstone @ XBOX Wife | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 10:57 PM
Shannon,
What a beautifully written post. It was just what I needed to be reminded of today. We have a Father who is most DEFINITELY worth the risk!
Thank you for sharing! Have a great week!
Jennifer
Posted by: Jennifer | Monday, September 24, 2007 at 11:49 PM